My Engine is Fired Up

I am going to start this blog to record this experience as I lose weight, exercise and live life again. I will write about how I am doing the good and when week moments come. This is going to be a vehicle to help affirm, motivate, and assess the experiences, situations and feelings that I will go through. It will be fun to see how I change in when I look back months from now.

I have been getting back to watching what I eat without any real structure for a few months, and I have been getting very serious with my food choices the past two weeks. I have had so many false starts I can't even begin to count. I have tried almost every type of diet. I eventually would want to break out and have whatever was being restricted, whether it was carbs, or fat, or if I would cut out something like cheese, it would be all I wanted. The only thing that I ever had success with was counting calories and eventually Weight Watcher points back in 2001. I lost over 150 pounds and I was almost at my goal weight and then things got stressful in life, and I started wanting the comfort of food without any restriction on myself. I slowly but surely put all the weight back on and continued to gain these past 10 years. One year I relost 70 pounds of the regain, but again, somehow I just turned back. I will NOT this time. I must do this and continue to understand myself and never go back. My weight last week after weighing in at a WW meeting was 354 pounds. That is down from 371 pounds at the end of 2010, so I have been doing better, but now its time to KICK BUTT!!!

I have been reading other successful people's blogs and I have seen that the best loses come from thos who are really counting their food, whether it be calories or points etc. I started with calories, but the numbers are too tedious. I love how with points it is easy eventually to remember the point value of the foods I normally eat, so that is what I am going to do. Even though the program says I should eat more because I have so much to lose, I am only going to have the minimum points for people with less to lose. I want to have one number in my head that I deal with from now on.